Last night I had the most incredible conversation with a good friend who started out, as most good friends do, a complete stranger.
And in the midst of a particularly trying emotional day, feeling raw and bleak, I found a new calmness in accepting that we are all connected - to each other and to everything.
Yes, I realize that some of this sounds insane, but I don't care. It's brought me the kind of peace I neither knew I wanted nor expected - I've been searching for "joy" for a long time and I'm realizing that that's not really what I'm looking for. We experience all sorts of emotions - but it's when we strip them away and just connect with breathing, existing, reflecting the energy off of each other and recognizing that we are without boundaries - that we can truly be free.
I should note that this is coming from a woman who admittedly FEELS everything, so I know a thing or two about how overpowering emotion can be and what that can do to one's self. It's pretty much been my entire life. But what if we let go of our emotional response to everything and just breathe through it?
What if we don't allow our minds to hold us hostage in that dark gloomy cell that we've erected around ourselves?
As I get closer and closer to that freedom, everything looks different. More gorgeous. More colorful.
And this morning, just to drive home the point, the universe cast a very strange glow as I left my house and implored me to wander out to see where it came from. And I was immediately floored by this majestic view. I am truly grateful to have felt one with the sun - all its power, warmth and light.
As I write this out, I am suddenly reminded of one of my favorite Shakespeare sonnets, which begins, "My mistress's eyes are nothing like the sun." I can't help but think, "well, William, that's because they ARE the sun."
And so am I. And so are you.
Glow on beautiful lovers. Glow on.
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